New Doctor, Fresh Start.

I'm sure I will have more to report after my trip to the new endo, but I wanted to write a new post because it has been longer than a week and I wanted to type up my questions/concerns for my visit tomorrow. Before I do that, I was thinking about my prior relationships with my old endos. I have, in the past, viewed them as new outfits: I just keep "trying them on," and then when I finally decide they don't make me look (feel) good, I throw them in the back of the closet. Some get paraded out every couple of years, but they always end up in the back again. I put all my expectations on what they can do for me, instead of what kind of patient I need to be in order for them to help me. I used to go to the appointments with nothing: no data, no numbers, no questions. Just a horrible A1C and a "good luck to you" sort of attitude. Not this time.

I feel like I have several things in my favor for "where I'm at" as a diabetic right now. I am exercising regularly. I am testing more than 2x a day. I am wearing a sensor. I am motivated. I am willing to ask for help, and accept that I am not always as "capable" as I want to be. With that, here are my concerns/questions:

-Basal Rates/Testing: Part of me just wants to start from scratch with these. I want to start running some basal tests to see if they are right, but I don't really know where to start.

-Exercise/Blood Sugars: How can I make these two work together, instead of feeling like they are always opposing forces?

-Good Control/Weight Gain: This seems to happen to me when I crack down on the numbers. I run lower, feed lows, end up gaining weight. Not a good motivator.

-Fear of Running Low/Sabotaging: Somewhere in my subconscious, because of my fear of going low and the feeling that comes along with it (out of control, not able to make decisions), I ensure that I don't come close to going low by, say, forgetting to bolus. Can we set up target to be a little higher so this isn't an issue? But not too high so that I don't get discouraged by the numbers?

So, those are the big ones. I will post a post-appointment post, post-haste.